helpp
everytime i talk to elaine or sheryl
they keep using lol
every sentence
either starts with lol or ends with lol
and now i keep feeling like typing lol
just to try out. what it feels like.
not that its bad or anything.
its just not what i do.
and now i keep feeling like saying dunno lah
because of yuli
and vera's stupid 'sorry!' keeps ringing in my head
until i feel like saying it
a hundred times
and once
because of seeing the f word everywhere
once i was so mad
i said it
more than once
and i felt so guilty
and still do
so everytime i rmb
i apologize to God and beg for forgiveness and repent and reflect
and waste abt half an hour
ahhhh
helppp
im conforming to the world!
i cant stand it.
i wont stand for this.

and yesterday church.
i promised God
i will never gossip again
not one word
at all
i hope i can keep it up.
fortunately theres no sch for a week. so i wont gossip.
not one worrd
not one word.
i shall write it on my hand.
yes.
thats good.

so i will not.
say lol
everytime i feel like saying it. i shall say. lollipop.
or dunno lah
or sorry in vera's tone
or the f word
or gossip
ever ever again
i promise on my cashbox.
if i do. take my cahsbox away. (just let me take all the money out first. hehe)
amen.